| I forgot to mention... |
[7th, October. 2010|03:13 am] |
I bought these two toys recently... adding to my camera collection...
Sony Nex 5
Fujifilm Instax 210
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[17th, September. 2010|02:27 am] |
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Because I promised you that you will never be replaced. |
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[15th, August. 2010|04:21 am] |
Do you know that I am constantly in this battle of irony within myself. It's like when I have a congested schedule I'm complaining that it's a drag and I just wanna laze. Looking at the skies, for example. Sleeping, perhaps. But when I have nothing, completely zilch missions to accomplish, I feel so lost. Empty. I feel as if I haven't done anything productive. So I really cannot make up whether I am disciplined or lazy or maybe this is a common issue that fellow humans face and which by now, I haven't the ability to comprehend.
HALP. |
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[15th, August. 2010|01:00 am] |
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Just what if... you didn't know what hurts anymore. And how it feels like to be... loved? |
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| Collection |
[6th, August. 2010|05:48 pm] |
I have these:
In: Fisheye2, Holga 135BC + Fisheye + Colorsplash Light, Ring Light, Spinner 360, Diana CMYK + Fisheye, Fujifilm Mini Instax 25, Blackbird Fly & Sony Cybershot (which I do not know what model it is).
I personally love the Fisheye 2 the most.
And I want these:
I mean... I'll get it. Someday.
In: Fujifilm Instax 210, Paul Smith Fisheye 2, Sony Cyber-Shot DSC-TX5, Disderi 3 lens camera. |
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[4th, August. 2010|05:25 am] |
This is it. Another round of endless hopelessly romantic tactics up my sleeves. I'm sure...
They say I'm mad. I'm crazy. I wonder most of the time what will happen if they found out it's true. Then again if you're crazy, you wouldn't really entirely know you are. So apparently no one would believe you. But what if, just what if, psychologists are wrong. That people can be psychotic and at the same time know what they're doing and that's the worst kind of psychotic level that any mad person could get because not knowing and doing is not a sin, but knowing and yet, still committing, is.
So. To add on... why do I like the challenge. Huh? Why? I hate it that I do. Because. Constantly finding myself going for people who're beyond hard to get, the minute they turn their backs on me, I just, need to get my flirt on and get them back. Haha. It's not the person that I like. It's the feeling of accomplishment that I chase and adore and that feeling... it could kill. Not only the people this feeling is directly to, but I'm pretty sure, myself. Such a morbid reason to die for. Not murder, not rape, not even suicide. A feeling.
And so. It's 5.25am. I'm barely alive. |
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[21st, July. 2010|12:00 am] |
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See, I don't fix broken strings. I don't even try. I throw them away. And I... probably won't get new ones either. But if I do... I mean, if I do, I'd buy a different one. Different brand, different texture, something stronger and more, more durable. |
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[6th, July. 2010|11:32 pm] |
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I can't give you any whole heart. I don't have one. Only broken pieces, here, and there. And you can try to piece them up, (if you want). |
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| 别再拖 |
[23rd, June. 2010|01:00 am] |
You know, actually, letting go is not as tough as you thought it was.
And so, I'm finally willing to open up the doors, because you've long ago did so, and you reap what you sow, so here's my take.
Even though letting go and forgetting is just a whole different altitude and opening doors too.
You will be remembered.
But I will move on. |
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[5th, June. 2010|03:08 am] |
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This heart has died and will never be resurrected again. |
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[15th, April. 2010|06:17 pm] |
Have been catching too many movies lately:
Date Night - 3 stars.
When In Rome - 3.5 stars.
Dear John - 4 stars.
Valentines Day - 2 stars.
Shutter Island - 5 stars.
Alice In Wonderland - 1 star. (Because I fell asleep in it!)
How To Train A Dragon - 3.5 stars.
Gonna catch another one later one and probably another one tomorrow. All of these before the new school term starts. Amen. |
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[13th, April. 2010|11:37 pm] |
Good day...
Just came back from Bangkok. And missed bloody songkran. Oh well...
But nonetheless it was a fantastic trip. Great experience. First time there, along with the bestfriend Shihui. Risky, dangerous, but, whatever. Spent too much money there - clothes, souvenirs, lingerie, food and transportation. Taking a cab is so cheap I feel like a king.
School's gonna start in a week and it feels... I don't know. What does it feel? |
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[26th, February. 2010|01:40 am] |
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I love the black, solemn, negative feeling I get from the background I have here. Makes me wan'a get back here and just, you know, post something relatively interesting, or, not. Maybe I'd come back. After all, this WAS me. What morphed me into me. And if in any case I lose my memory, here, it'll be the best to bring it all back. |
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| #37: Veins |
[15th, January. 2010|01:52 am] |
I guess, I guess, I guessed it was always the money that drift people apart. Or maybe, the less talk, the inevitable shortening of events, descending efforts and just, everything combined together. No doubt I'd lost a few friendships that meant more than something to me.
We were like Coke, and now, probably diet. Or, Coke zero.
I miss Shen, and Yeewee. |
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| My very last entry @ kaysamantha.livejournal |
[3rd, November. 2009|12:30 am] |
I am moving out of this space. Maybe to somewhere new, maybe not. I may stay mute forever. You ask why, I'll tell you. I hate this space. I've wanted to leave ever since forever, I hate the past I created and that morphed me into who I am now. Not that I hate myself. But things are hard to let go, once you're mentally and physically attached to it. And now that I finally found an empty need to keep these, I will, embrace departure. Promise you I'd be fine so, take care you all.
Lots of love,
xxx |
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| Aging |
[31st, October. 2009|04:20 pm] |
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When did everything stop being fun and start getting so scary? |
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[31st, October. 2009|01:22 pm] |
I never needed you for judgement. I never needed you to question what I spent. I never ask for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.
Ya seriously, why do even think you got a hold of me?
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[28th, October. 2009|05:09 am] |
I am once again alive at 5am. |
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[26th, October. 2009|03:30 am] |
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Thank God fr alcohol. I should stop being infused and go to bed, but, really, I miss you. |
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[25th, October. 2009|10:56 pm] |
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Can't nobody do it like you. |
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