| My very last entry @ kaysamantha.livejournal |
[3rd, November. 2009|12:30 am] |
I am moving out of this space. Maybe to somewhere new, maybe not. I may stay mute forever. You ask why, I'll tell you. I hate this space. I've wanted to leave ever since forever, I hate the past I created and that morphed me into who I am now. Not that I hate myself. But things are hard to let go, once you're mentally and physically attached to it. And now that I finally found an empty need to keep these, I will, embrace departure. Promise you I'd be fine so, take care you all.
Lots of love, xxx |
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[31st, October. 2009|04:20 pm] |
Cross my fingers and hope I get this job because I can't wait for Bangkok in December and February. And to pay Shen back debts. And to save up for my educational funds. And what else, so many things to do, so little time, so little money.
When did everything stop being fun and start getting so scary? |
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[31st, October. 2009|01:22 pm] |
I never needed you for judgement. I never needed you to question what I spent. (In fact I earn my own keeps.) I never ask for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.
Ya seriously, why do even think you got a hold of me?
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[28th, October. 2009|05:09 am] |
I am once again alive at 5am. |
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[26th, October. 2009|03:30 am] |
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Thank God fr alcohol. I should stop being infused and go to bed, but, really, I miss you. |
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[25th, October. 2009|10:56 pm] |
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Can't nobody do it like you. |
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[21st, October. 2009|04:12 am] |
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And lastly, I apologise for being horrendously irresponsible for only updating my journal today, with 4 or 5 posts. But then again, since when am I obliged to public's entertainment. No, seriously. |
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[20th, October. 2009|03:42 pm] |
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My friends were right. Time and time again, they see me playing with fire. And I never once stop. And I still, love playing with it. I'm in for the thrill even if I'm all what I'm about to kill. |
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| Vida |
[14th, October. 2009|01:49 pm] |
 To me, it only takes ONE guy to tell me that the rest are all the same. Proven. And I thereby propose a toast to the future, where I earn my own keeps and rely on no one, but me. But then again, I always do what I say I will not do. I have done plenty of stuffs I said I won't. We'll see. It should be someone's happy day today, and I'm the last person who want to ruin it by actually wishing him. Nevertheless, Otanjou-bi Omedetou Gozaimasu! Please be careful with hearts and all the best to your dreams. |
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[13th, October. 2009|03:19 am] |
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And seriously, 'crimson October', along with Halloween and Saw 6 should roll in fast. I'm getting tired of waiting for everything and excitement is running out. Short attention span - another one of my vice. |
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[13th, October. 2009|03:01 am] |
 And when tomorrow comes, it won't be 3/13 of us no more. Welcome home, fellaz. Especially the four bimbos (and how can I forget, my baby, Reynard - inside joke) My life is getting interesting again. I'm just, doing what I'm deem good at doing ^^ If you know me well enough, you should know what I'm referring to. Get the cue? Yeah, I feel like an autocrat now. Meow. There are always plenty of fishes in the sea, age is a number and thrill is all I'm fucking after, so boy, go ahead, FALTER! |
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[12th, October. 2009|05:04 pm] |
  Like Euro Disney or a wealthy pauper, my sister and I should be last on the list to be seen doing volunteering work. But I promise you, both me and her, we have the warmest hearts, deep down. I mean, you should know ^^ |
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[12th, October. 2009|04:05 am] |
I tried grey contacts, and this is how it looks like:  
The one thing I hate about colored contacts is that it doesn't really fit the pupil entirely. And it can get really dry somewhat after using it for a prolonged period of time.
So, how does it look?
I already got comments in Facebook but still fishing for compliments here. Told you I'd definitely get an A1 for ego.
It's 4am, I can't get to bed because the weather's so hot and my friends are in Thailand. And I'm suffering from a big apple heartbreak. That is not even funny. My sister just reminded me there's ice-cream in the refrigerator and maybe that'd pacify me.
A few days ago, it felt like I fell into a bottomless pit. I may be good with words but when it comes to several people, I can't manage. Offsprings of devils, I would say. That can make me go mental. I feel mental.
On a side-note, I ate too much during the weekends. Gonna starve again for the next few days. Movie with Pravin and Tabung later on, since it's left with only 3/13 of us in Singapore. Shihui's gone missing in action, and I'm pretty worried about her whereabouts. Please contact me soon, best friend. I'm gonna post a newspaper ad if you don't reply me. Don't dare me.
And I don't know if you guys know about guys who blog sourly over their spilled milk. No seriously, it's damn lame. Even girls don't do that. "I can totally see your vagina from here, dude."
I sound pretty dull right.
Because fucking hell, yes, I am!
Bye!
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[10th, October. 2009|11:46 pm] |
 If I can't get to you, Thailand, will you come to me? |
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[9th, October. 2009|04:33 am] |
In strength, in love, in courage, in trust, and in hope. |
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[9th, October. 2009|04:12 am] |
 I promise Janice not to sleep at 5am, so I will sleep at 4-ish! And I also promise to start eating and lose weight the good way. And I also promise not to turn mental. Good riddance! |
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[6th, October. 2009|01:28 am] |
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I'm not going into self-rehab anymore. Because rehab is for quitters. |
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[6th, October. 2009|01:26 am] |
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I need my escape. |
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[6th, October. 2009|01:22 am] |
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Sometimes you need to run away to see who's following you. |
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